My life has ended, my life has ended when my sister almost died, and still is in alot of pain. 

I am so one with my sister, that my life has also ended.. somehow, somewhat. I have to relearn to live life again. I dont know how to live with this pain. Somehow I do. I live. And I enjoy it sometimes.. when I manage not to think of her pain. 

Healing. What is healing to me? 

To me healing means doing things that make me feel better, more connected with life. With livelyness, with the life floating inside of me. Connecting with things and people who do me good. Who are good to the life inside of me. Who help it and inspire it to shine, glitter, smile, feel warm and flowy. 

Healing is nature. Being in nature. For me. ..  

Healing is being in a surrounding that has warm and uplifting, inspiring and reassuring, peaceful, joyful energy that makes me feel realxed, happy and breathing easy. Smiling or even crying, if crying is needed. 

At the moment I dont really wanna cry anymore. I cried so much in these past last two years. It s enough for ten life times.. 

But I guess now it is a persistant part of my life. 

Healing is also standing up for myself. Being clear. Upright. Proud of who I am in a relaxed way. Happy about who I am.