Morning has broken.. 

Hi. I m alive, and kicking it. I feel happy sometimes, and I m happy about that. Stress however isnt helful, and not very welcome. Have a few healthissue things to clear, skin, and belly.. and then I wish to have a trip to France and a job, who knows where, in Sebtember. I m tired, I want a summer vacation. 

I deserve a summer vacation. I feel I already have one. Vacation from the misery of my sister. Everything changed. And everything keeps changing. That s what is tiring. And I dont know where I belong. Before it was more of a game, a feeling, a lifestyle.. not to know. Now its rocksolid, a problem. Exhausting and draining. And ..no love, no cuddles, no sweet kisses.+ no sweet passionate, intense and wholesome connection, sex * .. 

Hm, no I m not needy anymore, and very thankful for that. But I m sad, that this is missing from my life. And I do not want to settle for less.. than passionate, butterflies, excitement, interest and intense connection. :) Yes.