Ein Wortenmeer in mir. Es schwappt in riesigen Wellen aus mir heraus, weiss nicht wohin, zu dir? zu ihr? Zu mir, meiner Gehirnrinde, zu denen, die schon gegangen sind.

Unendlich viel zu sagen, der Welt, mir selbt, dir, ihnen, ihr, ..den Kindern, den Jugendlichen, .. der Politik.. 

Wie kann ich das alles sagen, ausdrücken, verwortlichen und an die Menschen bringen? 

Ausser hier auf einem Blog den Kein_er liest.. 

Ein Wortenmeer, ich schenk es dir, es ist wunderschön, voller Blumen, Weisheit, Empathie und Schönheit der Stimmen die es ausmacht.. Ein Wortenmeer. 

Kein Erdrutsch mehr..

Sinking into sadness, lonelyness, kinda feels warm and comfy here, should be could be dancing more, being outside, come on, its summer, but I m safe here, home, is where your music is.. 

My head, tick tick boom, a time bomb, swaying to the music, I diving deep into myself, my moment, my deep feeling of me, of awe to be alive, healthy, able of a lot of things.. 

lonely yes. 

But it doenst mean that I m worth nothing.. I feel sometimes that noone even wants to be my friend anymore, I m time shifting, I m self shifting.. I m changing, I m drifting away, even more from people.. then ever, still holding on to something thats called life. 

Ya. I like it. Its a beautiful thing. Unless.. you lie there like my sister, unless you suffer from something else.. 

I m in peace, I have space for me and my music, friends who would want to share .. that moment would be nice.. 

I dont wanna stay stuck in feeling angry and dissapointed that doors werent opening for me, but closing.. some of them.. that I would have liked to enter. 

Lots of doors were opening. Shelter, wealth, comfort, peace, .. 

Who am I? Do I really write my own story, or is the story writing us? 

I just wanna stop thinking and start feeling, enjoying the rain, the wind, the mountains, the sea, the lakes, the people that smile at me.. my healthy body and mind. Myself. Myself. Why do I even wonder who that is.. ? Its so not important. Just be, Just do. Its ok, to be. To do. To speak. To sing. To dance. To move and love your body, you feeling your body. Its yours. 

I just wanna chill. Lie down and feel ..relaxation. Yes. Its summer. Yes.